I like to think TWP exists in a sort of limbo that is unmarked by whatever upheavals happening in the world which is why I don't comment on political or controversial issues on it and would rather take my tirade to twitter. What happened on Sunday, June the 3rd was however inescapable.
I've literally being staring at my computer screen for at least 30 minutes because I'm not sure what to say. Everything and more has been said and none of it can bring back any of the people that died in that plane crash. I like to believe my faith in God and His ways transcends whatever life may throw at me but I think that's because I have been extremely fortunate to not have undergone any form of tragedy.
People who lost mothers, fathers, sisters, brothers and entire families, can they be blamed if their faith wavers even for a second? We're all children of God, we are all alive by His mercy, but I can not for the life of me understand the works of His hands sometimes. An entire family; mother, father, children, ceased to exist as of Sunday, completely wiped out, no trace of them ever again. People lost both parents, lost their children, people who recently suffered deaths also lost someone again on Sunday. Would you blame them if they asked "why me Lord'? Are they not as prayerful maybe more so than the rest of us for whom the impact of this tragedy is also receding? Continuing along this train of thought might become a little blasphemous so I'll stop there but this mindless tragedy makes no sense.
The fact that you can be alive one minute and just....not there the next is terrifying, death is terrifying. The nothingness scares me more than anything.
Even more terrifying is the realization that you are about to die, the last moments of the passengers on that flight can not even be imagined. The children, the babies.......the parents who had to be strong for their children even when they were scared themselves........Father Lord, I can't even begin to imagine what these people went through. Nobody deserves this kind of ending so why did it have to happen to them?
I have cried, prayed, raged and lost hours of sleep but already the pain of it has slowly begun to recede from memory, making me feel guilty for watching tv shows or finding something funny when I know over 153 people will never be able to do the same again. I start to act like everything's normal then I look at my bbm updates where every single person has "RIP' up on their status and then the realization that hundreds of families lives are irrevocably changed hits me again.
I know there's supposed to be a reason for everything but for the life of me I can not see the reason for this needless loss of life. I try to take solace in the fact God knows best but from time to time I'm besieged by niggling rebellious thoughts wondering why this had to happen. I was not even as directly affected as so many people so if I'm feeling this way its sad to imagine how so many other people are feeling.
To the people that died as a result of the Dana Airways crash on Sunday, may the Lord God take your souls into His house, may He give your families solace and the fortitude to bear the emptiness.