I want to kill myself but I don’t know how
The end holds no fear for me; it’s the process that I’m a tad apprehensive towards
Shall it be by the blade, the bullet or deadly poison?
Limitless choices are spread out before me
I could run in front of a vehicle
Fling myself into murderous waters
Ensure I’m in the path of some deadly animal
O, the joy of ending my life on my own terms
I hold the knife, running a finger over its sharpness
Maybe this isn’t the one for me
I grip the pistol, stroking the nozzle like a lover
No, I don’t think this is it either
I hold the sachet of fatal powder
Hmmn, maybe a more physical death will do it for me
I leap up, race outside and prepare to fling myself before the appropriate vehicle
But I can’t seem to decide which one would have the honour of conveying me to the afterlife
I dash to the banks of a deadly current, tensing my muscles in anticipation of plunging into its icy depths
But I’m not entirely sure I want to get wet
There is no other recourse but to be mauled by a vicious beast
But isn’t it just my luck, none seem to be out today.
I guess I won’t kill myself after all
I never knew how arduous it was
All these means to mortality
I think I’ll wait till the Lord takes me
I’d love to observe His technique
Maybe I could learn a thing or two.
this better be a joke, hope you are ok? xx
ReplyDeletePhewww! Just wait for God oh!
ReplyDeleteI'm guessing this should be one of your poems?
ReplyDeleteWell written.
"I’d love to observe His technique
ReplyDeleteMaybe I could learn a thing or two..."Nice..
My emotions over the last couple of days can so relate to this..
i thank God the person in question was a chicken after all..i really do hope this is a poem, hon??
ReplyDeletePoem or just a negative fantasy- if there is a word like that-. There is a light that will shine thru at the end of the tunnel
ReplyDeleteIt crossed my mind before but i put it to the sky but i love your poem!
ReplyDeleteFabulous! I loved this.
ReplyDeleteI hope you're ok hun?
@jaf, lol, cos i'm aight
ReplyDelete@abujamaiden, seriously waiting for oga. too much of a coward to carry out His duties for him
@chichi, of course luv, thanks
@rocnaija, i don't understand! u wanna off urself already?
@buttercup, just messing with y'all. i no fit
@standtall, no fantasy at all. lemme say this now, i have never considered killing myself, its just artistic expression
@lifeofbrian, lol, please dont. thank you!
@kem, you're too kind! i'm banging still, lol.
Glad to hear this is just a poem, cos it's nothing to joke wif. First time here though. Holla
ReplyDeleteI love this! Very deep...
ReplyDeleteLOL @ everyone thinking she really wants to kill herself.
@invisible man, lol, yeah I know. Thanks for stopping by
ReplyDelete@om, thank you, thank you. Human beings are very susceptible including myself, I don't blame anyone
@invisible man, lol, yeah I know. Thanks for stopping by
ReplyDelete@om, thank you, thank you. Human beings are very susceptible including myself, I don't blame anyone
I was wayyy relieved when I read the last few lines. Abeg don't even joke like this abeg!!!
ReplyDeleteThis is some deep stuff son
ReplyDeletehey this is a great piece but you know God doesn't take us away ( read the story of "Job") but not dumbing it down or anything this is an excellent piece and i do love the ending, i write too you should come check it out
ReplyDeletelike naijadramaquen, the last line was really comforting.
ReplyDelete@NDQ, lol, I wont!
ReplyDelete@Afunto, yezzir
@Notion, thanks, I def will
@Afrobabe, lol, its not that serious!